...been through it

parental Advisory: explicit word used. Just one.

Many a time people look at the next person and laugh at them for something that they did or something that happened to them. This is usually because the laughers are happy because attention has been diverted to another person .... Naaaaaaah... People are just nosey and spiteful. They always want to know what is going on in somebody else' life and want to be the first to laugh and spread the news.

Well... I am not here to talk about other people lest I lower myself to their level. I am Here to talk about the most important person in my life, me. I can safely say I have been through the sewer, got immersed in shit....waded through the crap that is the by product of what people take in. The stuff they are fed or feed themselves.... The rumours, the sensational stories, the true stories And the lies. Even when you eat good food it still comes out as smelly shit.

So....people feed on this stuff and whatever comes out after is smelly.... Its shit. But...not all shit is bad... When used as manure it makes things grow,its nutritious. Anyway, I have been through the sewer as I said and I got shit all over me and probably got some in my mouth also because I was not knee deep in shit, I was IN shit therefore I was all shitty. Yes I have realised I have used the word shit a lot.

So back to my shit. I will not claim to be a saint. I have done a lot of sh... Wait, I wont say it.... Instead I will say stuff. I have done a lot of stuff, stolen, lied, driven drunk and most of all... I have cheated on my wife. Yes shit. People asked me why, but their is no reason for cheating. If you have a reason then I think you had set out to do so in the first place.

Now,my point here is, I cheated and well something came out of that tunnel I entered, no pun intended. Yes...I had a child out of wedlock. I am not proud of it but it happened and now I have to live with it. Where does the shit part come in?

People have had their say. They took in the information , fed on it, digested it and they have crapped it out. Many stories have emerged from this. People assuming my wife will leave me..I will leave my wife for the other woman
.... A lot anyway. All I can say is that it has been a trying time. A time that has built me into something else....someone else. I now don't look at people the same I definitely trust less people than I used to. I ha e less friends than I used to. A few people have been by my side and have offered their counsel and I am eternally grateful to them. Thank you so much. If you are one of my pillars of strength or my 'tissue' through this period, you know yourself.... Thank you.

This experience has exposed those that just claim to be friends....and those that are true friends. Friends.... You are very few. For those that want to talk, thanks fort making me famous and stronger.

I have exposed myself I guess. I have been through shit and I won't hide it. I wonder how many of you can come to the podium and say you are covered in shit.

So...let me close with this....He who has no shit...uhhh.... Should not be in he toilet. Makes sense to me